Supposed to be doing my FM tutorial for class tomorrow, but somehow I suddenly remembered about this blog, this place where I used to vent all my frustrations and chatter on about life.

Just read through some of my posts, and realised, I have certainly matured haha… Well, many things changed since entering uni. Life became more hectic, more complicated, more crazy.

Let this be a platform where I can truly say how I feel.

Boy I am getting older in… 2 days how sad. I miss the times in VJ!

This is a totally random post with no main topic and I am just throwing in random thoughts.

~What if I didn’t make this choice and chose the other instead? Would it have been different…

I told myself I would never regret.

I told myself I would never blame anyone else for this decision, especially not you.

I told myself to never ever have the thought that you should be thankful because I chose this path for your sake.

I told myself I would not be missing out on anything.

And I am telling myself I would be happy there.

Good things fall apart, but only for better things to fall in place.

By the way, I was quite unhappy with my company’s sudden arrangement of changing my workplace from Singpost to Parkview. I know that we are in no position to argue over this arrangement, but my boss just gave a almost zero hour notice? She told us it may happen soon. And the next thing we know, bam we are shifting the next day. Not that I am blaming my boss, I really lurve her haha, but the arrangement really sucks. And we have to leave the other team of temps just when we were getting on really well. Now, they hate it there cos there’s a change of boss, and we hate it here because it’s so freaking boring.

原來我從來都沒忘記。。。

Okay I am continuing this post from yesterday cos I suddenly didn’t have the mood to blog. Anyway, speaking about my job, I have  finally understood how a polite person can make you day. But sad to say, the opposite’s also true. A totally rude and impolite person can spoil your day. The only difference is that a polite person will not be able to make your entire day, but an impolite dude can spoil your entire day no matter how many nice people you meet after that. Obviously I got chided by  customer today, for a mistake that’s entirely none of my business. I guess I am not supposed to disclose much, but I will remember that person’s name for at least this whole week. Today’s leads have been the worst so far, people just don’t get it right, we are freaking doing them a good deed okay, and they don’t appreciate that. Seriously… If it’s not for the recordings I would have totally slammed the phone down.

But of course, on a brighter side, there are really nice people who appreciates us. And I am really thankful for them. May good karma get back to them!

You just have the talent to piss me off, even without the need of meeting you. Whatever you do now makes me even surer that what I have been doing is right.

Oh I forgot to mention that I am quite sad cos we are not returning back to VJ today.

Anyway, after physics MCQ, part of the hall, expectedly went crazy and started cheering the end of exams. Sad to say, I wasn’t part of them, because I wasn’t exactly as estastic and happy as some of the peeps were. I guess we were all just relieved, or at least me. NO more chionging, no more burning midnight oil, no more hair-grabbing frustrated moments. Relief is the word that perfectly described my mood then.

After that we went mahjonging at gx’s house and I suffered a great loss of like 6bucks?! and I decided to halt the game before I lose more money hahaha. The other table was.. haha much more hiong. Pretty impressed with their stamina, though it’s nothing compared to those 3days3nights kind of mahjong marathon I have heard of.

Oh yes here’s the main part that spurred me to blog today. I went to kumon ytd, and while having briefing, this kiddo very very very unfortunately for ME, regurgitated on me?!!!!!!!!! On my back =.= I was disgustingly horrified ok! I didn’t really got angry haha just ya know EWWWW. But ohwells, poor kid and poor me. He didn’t literally vomitted on me? But his vomit felt like raindrops landing on my back. Warm and stinky raindrops. ERHH. It was ultimate gross. Thank god there was an extra shirt at kumon, or I would be… you know. But for the entire session I felt like I stinked though the others say it’s psychological. Haha perhaps.

Alrights, off to bed. Hope they contact me soon Woohoo I am on my way to fulfilling my childhood dream. IF they contact me. PLS PLS PLS call me!

And definitely not for my juniors and all the poor kids intenting to enter JC next time. Haha because A level’s is getting more and more difficult, well at least for me. You know sometimes you think this and this will confirm come out, like since the school placed so much emphasis on those topics. But no, Cambridge happily dropped an atomic bomb on us. NIA? circular flow!? WTH WTH WTH. Kind of expected like policies, inflation!? I was so ready to to take on inflation essays. Argh imagine my horror, and how stunned I was when I saw the essays topics. Micro was equally bad, and I still can’t get over the fact that I chose some stupid dumb 25marks dd/ss/elasticity qns. The anxiety and gan-jeongness just kept building up.

This was what exactly went through my mind throughout the whole econs paper 2, from the moment I sat down till when I placed my pen down:

*stares hard at qns paper, hoping that I can look through the paper to see the qns, but obviously I couldn’t. * Hope what I studied come out. Pls let me see inflation, effects of globalisation,MF. *flips paper and read carefully* STUNNED. oh damn this is difficult, oh die ler never mug this, ah this can’t do,oh gosh I didn’t think this will come out!? AHHH this can’t be happening!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okie dun panic, grab the pencil, maybe ideas will flow…Oh man why can’t I draft a single essay? Shit, no time to write my 3rd essay, die ler I dunno what else to write, crap I dunno which dumb essay to choose cos I have problem with every one!? This can’t be happening to me! It’s the A levels! It’s not prelims or CTs that I just need to pass! AH heck just choose one, no time to think!!!!!! What freaking theories can I throw in!? Darn I know I am writing nonsense but I can’t stop. Just fill up the paper! faster faster faster write faster!  Ah dratz time’s up. GG ler. Die die. WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO ME!!???

 And that was the horrible experience and turmoil I went through for the whole 2 hours and 15minutes. Honestly, the only essay that made sense to me was MF. The rest that I wrote is crap and I think I kept repeating myself.Essay was BAD. I just hope case study today will pull up my marks PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS.  Crappola canbridge, why can’t they just give the topics they usually do and let us have a piece of mind, and let our pens flow. The fact that I mugged so much, stored so much info in my brains, hoping to unleash them during essays made it even more tragic. I just felt like killing myself the moment I realise I am not going to ace the essay paper. Or at least complete the paper on a satistified note, but then again, which paper had been satisfying? There’s always this and that which went wrong.

Maybe it’s because I didn’t study enough. But certainly for econs p2 it was %#&%^&*$%&(*^$* .Ya know BAD.  I guess the other papers for this week were fine. Definitely 1000times better than econs. I hereby declare that ECONS H2 A LEVEL P2 has been the worst exam I have ever taken. Plus, it’s A levels. It’s different from CTs where you can fail and whine and complain but nothing as large-scale as affecting your life will happen.  Dratz I shall stop my complains about Econs here and go emo one corner. At the same time pray really hard that P1 today pulls up the marks big time. But my expectation for econs has fallen. Guess we shouldn’t be living in self-denial all the time.

Anyways my com is getting really messed up. It starts up at a terribly slow speed and getting into the internet is worst. I spent 20minutes handling all the crap that happened. The only happy thing that’s happened is that I ate sakae with huimay,dict,varian and weiliangy today after paper. And we talked super alot of rubbish. And I koped alot of food

Haha alrights sorry for the extra heavy dose of crap/shit/darn and whatever “bad” words I have used. Not expletives I supppose? Well, if you have read all the way down here, and read through all my nonsensical whining and blabbering, THANK YOU big time . Haha for spending your time reading my grouses. LOL. Right gonna hit the sack now and start mugging again tomorrow!

9 more days to freedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After that some of us went to the airport for lunch and mugged abit of chem and math, but the saddest thing was that we were all not in the mood to study. So we left at around 6pm. And Huimay came up with the idea of going back Vj for the night open house and pretend to be sec4s. Most importantly, she wanna do mass dance haahah… LAST MASS DANCE. But we didn’t have time to go home and change so we decided to just return to school as Victorians. Had an awesome time doing all the mass dances though it was really hot. Imagine if we did it in the blazing sun, mind you we were doing it at 630ish pm.

I entered to igloo for the 2nd time in my whole VJ life haha later on, and realised how much I suck at XBOX because I totally couldn’t control the thing. So I gave up after 2 minutes.

For the past 2 years, VJC has really given me alot. Equal share of ups and downs, certainly more fun than I could ever had imagined, and of course more mental turmoils that I never thought I would encounter.The last challenge, the last hurdle, the A levels. I should try my very best, add very last drop of oil I have to end off this marvellous journey in VJ. MUG HARD, HAN YI.